Things better left unsaid

So this past weekend was my college graduation..... with that being said my family came up to celebrate this wonderful occasion. (which included: my mother, nana, great aunt, 2nd cousin, brother, and hopefully future sister in law..... oh and my boyfriend too but he is always around.)
Things started out great.... we were all getting along, and despite the ugly weather managed to enjoy the beauty of good ol' Va, that is until my mother started to mention everything wrong about me and what I do. It started out with my lack of packing(which was true, I did manage to put off packing until well the last min like I always do) then it was my hair and my clothes and moved on to my weight and just any and everything that she could make a comment on she voiced her lovely opinion. (which reminded my why I was staying here in VA after graduation and she was going back home to TX) Now don't get me wrong here I love my mother with all of my heart but the fact that she feels that she has to say every thought that crosses her mind makes me realize that I want to be the type of person that people want to be around, regardless of what is going on. Now I'm not saying that I haven't said a few things ever now and then that may have been better left unsaid but I am saying that I am trying to check myself more often. and simply put it keep things that are better left unsaid alone, because life is too short and words are strong and once you but it out there it can never be taken back regardless of how many "I'm sorry" are followed. so make sure you choose your words wisely and remember that words are powerful no matter what form that come out as.

Graduation

As I sit in the library at 5:00am trying to finish up my senior research project all I keep thinking of is that one ten letter word that will not seem to leave me alone.

Graduation 

It has been all that everyone has been talking about, although there are some days that I can not wait to get out of this crazy pink bubble I just have this sinking feeling in my stomach that things are never going to be the same again. Never again will I be able to dress in costumes 5 monts out of the year, and recieve wonderful puff painted presents just because......... Never again will I be able to wake up to this amazing view, Never again will I be able to sit in my kitchen and talk to my roommates for hours avoiding the massive amount of work that I have waiting in my room. Now don't get me wrong I am totally hyped about my future whatever road may lead me but I just have this sudden feeling to embrace every moment and hold to that hug from my odd ball friends for a little bit longer because after 10am May 14th things are never going to be the same. these past four years may have been some of the most challenging years that I've had to endure so far, but I can say that I have seen myself transforn from a quitet timid girl to this outspoken women who isn't afraid to challenge an idea but also but willing to learn at the same time.





Finishing up.... Twenty Seven - Thirty

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.

me, mom, Mama Hazel (great gma), Nana (gma)

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.

I don't not do scary movies..... no thank you!

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you feel better.

Me and Mikki .... Camp Dogwood 2010

Day 30 - A picture that speaks for itself.

I've been so bad at this Day Twenty Two - Twenty Six

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.

 

 

Knitting I starting teaching myself but can't get passed the scarf stage

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.

God Don't Like Ugly is a series of books that are hard to put down

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.

When Parents tell there kids to stop asking questions ...... that comment makes my skin crawl

Day 25 - A picture of your day.

 

 

 

 

Spring Step Singing at Sweet Briar

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.

Music: Can change any mood I'm in and I couldn't image my life without it!

Day Twenty and Twenty One

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.

Fiji

Day 21 - A picture of the city you live in.

Lynchburg VA

Day Ninteen

Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.

Day Eighteen

Day 18 - A picture of your favorite food.

Day Seventeen

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

Although this might sound cliche this book has really helped me reorganize myself and look at things as they are and not how I would like them to be.... I went through a really bad break up about 2 years ago and for some reason I could not let go of this guy. I think maybe because I was afraid of letting go and not finding something "better" or putting myself out there in such an honest way again, but regardless of the reason I went through all the motions of a girl in a break up mode ... I had the lonely friday nights in bed with a tub of ice cream and a bag of chips, then there was the crazy party girl phase, and of course the I'm totally over him phase until I see him with another girl then start all over phase. then a friend told me about this book it was by the same guy that wrote he's just not that into you and it really helped me see that I was holding on to memories of what use to be instead of what the present was currently becoming. From that point on I promised to look as things how they truly are not through my over analyzed vision and to only date people who compliment me instead of complete me because I never want to left with only half of myself again.

Day Sixteen

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.

Leslie King a strong black woman doing things on her own, her own way. This wonderful woman isn't letting anything hold her back and that is something that I strive to do as I grow into the woman I know that I can become. She is not only my mentor but my family and an inspiration to my life!

catching up from Florida.... Day eleven through the fifteenth

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.

cats.... ugh

Day 12 - A picture of 5 things you love.

snuggling up with a book

mint chocolate chip ice cream

warm summer days

cleaning

 

shopping

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite bands or artists.

Chris Brown

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.

skydive

Day Ten

Day 10 - A picture of the person you miss.

 My brothers.... being away from them these past few years has been one of the hardest things I've had to overcome!

Day Nine

Day 9 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

 My roommates the Emily's have helped me through so much these past four years....... and as we venture on outside of the pink bubble these girls are going to stay near to my heart!

Day Eight

Day 8 - A picture that makes you smile.

 Why I love Kids

My boyfriend sent me a email with a bunch of pictures of all these kids doing .... "kid things" and this one
brings a smile to my face every time!

Day Seven

Day 7 - A picture of your most treasured item.

As a Sweet Briar Woman I think my most treasured item is my class ring..... it's the one thing that I will absolutly lose my mind over if it is misplaced (which I actually managed to do TWICE over winter break!) I haven't had this ring for long but it is something that I believe every Sweet Briar woman looks forward to getting. I think this rings is something that units all the SB women both present and past and as a senior I feel is the connection to the future students.... and wrapped into this tiny pinky ring are memories that will last a lifetime.

                                                                  Junior Banquet 2010

Day Six

Day 6 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

I wouldn't necessarily want to trade places with one articular person for a day......... However I have this small ok Big obsession with shoes and  I would love to trade places with a shoe model!

Day Five

Day 5 - A picture of your favorite memory.

 Leslie, me, Tierra, Christa

 This picture is my favorite moments because it was the last trip I took with the King family before,
Mr. King passed away. His passing was such a great lost to all of my friends because he had become the father figure that so many of his had lacked. Especially for me personally, the King family took me in as one of their own and regardless of what was going on I knew I could turn to any of them if I needed them..... but no matter what happens I know that Mr. King's spirit will always be a thriving presence in my life!

Day Four

Day 4 - A picture of your night.

Scott and Ben at Bar Louie's

Because I go to school two hours away from my boyfriend I don't get to hang out with him and his friends very often..... but when I do I can honestly say there is never a dull moment. He has known these guys for many years now and the bond that he has created with them has been one of the main reasons I have grown to love him. to see how much compassion he has for these guys "over fills my love cup" (as Boggs says)!

Day Three

Day 3 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

 The Game..... one of the few sitcoms on tv. This show was originally on CW but then was cancled and BET bought the rights to do reruns. unfortunately like any show you are left with so many questions (what happens next? Does Darwin become a father to his son? Did Kelly and Jason go through with their divorce? Did Kelly really knock out Tasha?) so the fans brought it back through letters,emails,facebook page, and twitters. Now The Game is back better than ever and not only answering all the unanswered questions from last season but also creating new ones.  I'm so over "reality tv" I have my own reality I don't need yours to escape to I want something that's written something that creates jobs not destroys families... which is why this game is my favorite show!

Day two

Day 2 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for the longest.

My cousin Brittany is the person who I have been close with for the longest..... when we were young we spent everyday together and would spend all of our family trips tied at the hip. It has been amazing to watch her grow and mature into a women and though I don't talk to her as much as I would like she is the one person who I know will always be there for me no mater what and love me past my flaws!

Day One

I have finally given into peer pressure and have decided to start a blog...... I didn't want to start one because I feel like I'm not a great writer and my words aren't going to flow like the beautiful blogs I follow on a day to day which can be  found scattered across my screen at any given day. nonetheless I heard it clears the head and mellows the heart so I thought hey why not give it a shot......
First though I think I will start with the 30 Day challenge, my life seems to flow better when I have a template to go by.


Day One
A Picture of yourself with fifteen facts

1. When I'm mad at someone I just act like they don't exist ...... and I can do this for months at a time

2. I tell little white lies to get out of uncomfortable situations

3. I feel the need to leave the state at least once a month.... and the city at least once every two weeks

4. I hate asking for things but sometime I feel as though it's the only way I can make it right now 

5. I can't sleep without someone else in the room with me or the TV on

6. I clean because I'm afraid of germs and  being unorganized 

7. My mom is my best friend and I talk to her at least once a day

8. I can't wait to get married and have kids so I can decorate my house and dress my kids up

9.When I get married, I want to travel to at least three different countries with my husband before I have kids

10. I let my nails grow until 2 break off on the same hand and then I cut them all off and start over

11. I'm a cold nature person who wears a jacket or hoodie all the time.... even in the middle of summer

12. I want to start my own daycare someday.... and just sit and rock babies all day

13. the day my best friend's dad passed away I felt like I lost my own father 

14. I love Greek food and hope to visit there one day

15.I hope to marry my boyfriend someday!