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Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Things better left unsaid

So this past weekend was my college graduation..... with that being said my family came up to celebrate this wonderful occasion. (which included: my mother, nana, great aunt, 2nd cousin, brother, and hopefully future sister in law..... oh and my boyfriend too but he is always around.)
Things started out great.... we were all getting along, and despite the ugly weather managed to enjoy the beauty of good ol' Va, that is until my mother started to mention everything wrong about me and what I do. It started out with my lack of packing(which was true, I did manage to put off packing until well the last min like I always do) then it was my hair and my clothes and moved on to my weight and just any and everything that she could make a comment on she voiced her lovely opinion. (which reminded my why I was staying here in VA after graduation and she was going back home to TX) Now don't get me wrong here I love my mother with all of my heart but the fact that she feels that she has to say every thought that crosses her mind makes me realize that I want to be the type of person that people want to be around, regardless of what is going on. Now I'm not saying that I haven't said a few things ever now and then that may have been better left unsaid but I am saying that I am trying to check myself more often. and simply put it keep things that are better left unsaid alone, because life is too short and words are strong and once you but it out there it can never be taken back regardless of how many "I'm sorry" are followed. so make sure you choose your words wisely and remember that words are powerful no matter what form that come out as.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Graduation

As I sit in the library at 5:00am trying to finish up my senior research project all I keep thinking of is that one ten letter word that will not seem to leave me alone.

Graduation 

It has been all that everyone has been talking about, although there are some days that I can not wait to get out of this crazy pink bubble I just have this sinking feeling in my stomach that things are never going to be the same again. Never again will I be able to dress in costumes 5 monts out of the year, and recieve wonderful puff painted presents just because......... Never again will I be able to wake up to this amazing view, Never again will I be able to sit in my kitchen and talk to my roommates for hours avoiding the massive amount of work that I have waiting in my room. Now don't get me wrong I am totally hyped about my future whatever road may lead me but I just have this sudden feeling to embrace every moment and hold to that hug from my odd ball friends for a little bit longer because after 10am May 14th things are never going to be the same. these past four years may have been some of the most challenging years that I've had to endure so far, but I can say that I have seen myself transforn from a quitet timid girl to this outspoken women who isn't afraid to challenge an idea but also but willing to learn at the same time.